RIP Ambrose

My dear friend, Ambrose Ofuani, has died. We were connected in a way few people are – but let me start at the beginning…

I first met Ambrose 7 years ago when we lived on the same street in Tallahassee. Every morning at 7am I’d see a tall, black man dressed in colorful African clothing walking toward the Parkway. And every every evening at 7pm, he’d be walking back the other way, towards the home he shared with his nephew. One afternoon, I happened to be at home and when I went back to work, there he was, walking. I stopped and offered him a ride and that was the start of our friendship. I learned that he had had a stroke while driving and had spent a year as an in-patient re-learning everything: how to walk, how to talk, how to cook. He spoke of this experience, but not in a negative way. He expressed an obvious frustration for the difficult tasks he had to do in order to master simple skills, but more importantly, he chose to focus on his successes. He was finally able to go back to work but wasn’t able to drive anymore. So twice a day, he’d take the bus to and from work. For the next year and a half while I lived in Tallahassee, I’d ride the bus to work too, and he’d often save me a seat. On the bus, he’d tell me stories. Stories about the various African tribes and some of their rituals (to explain why some of the other bus riders from African nations had scars on their faces). Stories about other bus-travellers. He seemed to have a smile and “Hell-ohh” for everyone. He was a large man, and his personality was large too.

He often referred to himself as a “proud Ibo warrior” and told me about his ancestors and his place in the rankings of his tribe. Even though he wasn’t anywhere near his home continent, I could tell he still felt connected to his family there and to the Niger. Oh, he had stories about Nigeria too! He longed to go back and show his son around. He told me about his days as a soccer coach and it was evident how much he enjoyed teaching and encouraging his teams. I think he thought that one day, he’d play soccer again. And I hoped that for him as well. He told me about his older sister in Africa, who had died from a stroke and how blessed he felt to be living in America, with its medical advances. And when he told me about his son, I could tell how proud he was of Philip, his scholastic and athletic achievements. He told me about his various serious relationships. The woman he married and had no children with and the woman he had a child with and never married. He spoke matter-of-factly and didn’t seem to have any regrets.

He loved to cook. Once he invited me over for dinner and made a special bread made from a purple-ish grain. He showed how to knead it in my hand so that it could be used to soak up gravy. And he laughed when it took me a few tries to get the hang of it. Once he came to my house and fixed a fish dinner – tilapia, telling me that it was the fish mentioned in the Bible story about the miracle of bread and fishes.

Church was important to Ambrose. Maybe not so much for the teachings, but because he loved to give thanks for every little blessing – and he counted most things as blessings. That, and he loved the female attention he got! A tall, dark, handsome man, proud of his heritage, full of confidence and love. Who could resist that? Not I!

After I moved to California, I didn’t stay in touch with Ambrose as I should have but when I returned to the south several years later, we reconnected. That’s when I learned that he’d had what he thought was another stroke. And he told me the story of being on the train, going to Orlando at Christmastime to visit Philip when suddenly he was in medical distress. He was so determined to see his son, he did not want to get off the train to seek help! Then, for added fun, he went into renal failure. As always, there was no trace of anger when he described the round of doctor’s appointments, medication, and altered diet that had become his life, in between working half days for the State. That first time I saw him again after that, I was shocked! The big, strapping man I remembered was now a shell of his former self, physically.  I could tell he was struggling. I remember taking him to Carrabelle beach one afternoon. We stopped at Subway (his favorite sandwich place) and had a picnic on the sand. I encouraged him to at least take his shoes off but he told me he couldn’t be in the salt water, that that would counteract some medication he was taking.

I don’t think I really understood how serious his condition was until he went on dialysis. He would tell me about it, especially after the ports had to be surgically implanted in his arm. He told me that it hurt but that the nurses were so kind. And, that it was exhausting. At this point, he was working Monday, Wednesday, and Friday  and was in dialysis for hours afterwards. It was painful to see him in pain. And yet, he would talk about the future, about taking his son to Nigeria and playing soccer again. He was always full of hope and optimism. That was one of the many qualities I loved about him.

I’m not sure how the topic came up, but at some point we discovered we were the same blood type. And, having previously done research into kidney donation, I told him that I’d be willing to be tested as a donor. One time we went to see his doctor’s at Shands, me driving down from Georgia, picking Ambrose up, driving to Gainesville. I remember telling his doctors that Ambrose was a great transplant candidate because of his overwhelmingly positive attitude.  On the way back to Tallahassee, we stopped at an antiques mall. Oh, he was like a kid in a candy store. I was worried that he was too tired, but he rallied and checked out booth after booth, finally buying an unopened Coke can that had special meaning for him. He was so happy with that purchase.

Then came the day 2 years ago when he was placed on the transplant list. I had already filled out a donor evaluation form and immediately called the Shands transplant coordinator to find out what to do next. After tests, tests, and more tests (none of them fun and most of them done in Gainesville) we got the news: I was a match! I wish I could have been there when Ambrose got the news but I was so excited to be able to finally do something to help that I drove down to Tallahassee to visit Ambrose in the dialysis center. It was a bit daunting to see all those people hooked up to machines and to watch Ambrose wince as they inserted the tubes into his ports. I held his hand throughout that treatment and all I could think of was: only a few more dialysis sessions for Ambrose!

Ambrose could be stubborn (understatement)! I think that is what sustained him through his life’s challenges – that and his genuine love of all people. He had a big heart and loved to laugh.  I saw Ambrose the morning of the transplant surgery and he was in good spirits. Afterwards, people called me a hero. I don’t see it that way. I had a friend who was dying and I could do something about it.

I saw Ambrose when I was back in the US this past February.  I could tell he was struggling but he always seemed to pull through. I did not know when we hugged goodbye that that was the last time I’d see him.

Last week, before I knew of his death, he came to me a dream. Not the Ambrose struggling to breathe and barely able to walk, but a younger Ambrose, with his jolly smiling face. I don’t remember exactly what he said, but I woke up smiling, at peace. And I think that’s exactly what he’d want for all of us – to know that he is in a better place. I’ll miss you my dear friend but I’ll smile when I remember how much vitality and joy and love you brought into our lives. Until we meet again…

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8 Comments (+add yours?)

  1. Suzi Kamin
    Jul 26, 2012 @ 20:42:30

    I am so sorry to hear about Ambrose. I know what a close friend he was to you. He made the world a better place, and know he leaves you and his family/friends with fond memories..

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    • twgurl54
      Jul 29, 2012 @ 06:09:13

      Thanks Suzi. It’s been a rough week, that’s for sure. I still cry at the drop of a hat; it’ll take time to heal. I appreciate your good wishes and support.

      Reply

  2. Lisa
    Jul 28, 2012 @ 03:52:52

    Hi Asia,

    He called you “his angel”….

    Reply

  3. BJ
    Mar 25, 2014 @ 10:05:07

    Good Morning Dear Asia,
    You have no idea what it means to me to have discovered this site. I as well was a dear friend of Ambrose for over 20 years. The grief I felt at his passing is as fresh in my heart today as it was when I first recieved the call that he was no longer in this life.
    Yes Ambrose was all of what you speak of him and I feel so blessed to know of some one else who knew him to be the special as he was. He was indeed a brave Warrior up to the end.

    For more than 20 years and throughout his health struggles I was always there. He always spoke of you in such a blessed way. When he relayed the story about you and the kidney transplant. I did not believe him at first that one could be so kind. Thanks be to the Creator

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  4. BJ
    Mar 25, 2014 @ 10:16:49

    Good Morning Dear Asia,
    You have no idea what it means to me to have discovered this site. I as well was a dear friend of Ambrose for over 20 years. The grief I felt at his passing is as fresh in my heart today as it was when I first recieved the call that he was no longer in this life.
    Yes Ambrose was all of what you speak of him and I feel so blessed to know of some one else who knew him to be the special as he was. He was indeed a brave Warrior up to the end.

    I seem to have lost the rest of the comment. In any case just wanted to make contact would love to talk to you. I was a secret friend as well and have suffered in silence for many years. However, we did meet on just one occasion at his place one Friday when you came to visit him. I still have that photo that I took of you two.

    Glad I found your blog! If you are still out there, hope to hear from you soon.
    BJ Janet

    For more than 20 years and throughout his health struggles I was always there. He always spoke of you in such a blessed way. When he relayed the story about you and the kidney transplant. I did not believe him at first that one could be so kind. Thanks be to the Creator

    Reply

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